I already finished typing this post but upon rereading thought it was written too much in anger. So lemme just sum up what Im feeling by this image:

There, I feel better.

Since my favorite season is fall, its understandable that I would detest spring. It is the counterpart of everything wilting and dreary, spring is bright and hopeful, all colours and breezy. Ironically fall makes me feel at ease, while spring is making me super depressed. You know how that phrase "love is in the air" is synonym to spring. Pretty much like annoying pollen in the air that make you sneeze everywhere. Well apparently love (and pollen) is indeed in the air.

Everyone, and I mean everyone, seems to be catching the lovebug. People are pairing up everywhere. The last time I counted there are 7 couples I know that recently hooked up. Any other time I dont mind being the only single listening to my friends' relationship drama. Any other time I wouldnt even notice the hand holding, the stolen kisses, the playful nudging, the subtle butt graze, but it seems to be everywhere in full force every spring that walking on the sidewalks is like watching a cheesy romantic movie. Only this time youre in it, and youre the loser fat girl who couldnt get a date, playing third, fourth, how many wheel, whose only company is a tub of cheap ice cream and the duvet. I wouldnt mind icecream and duvet in autumn but you see theyre so out of place in spring.

I should move to the northern hemisphere for a few months where I belong. Or just go back to Malaysia now where its seasonless, and everything makes me feel numb.

Regardless Im sooooooo happy for my girl Sheera who deserves all the happiness she gets (eventhough she left me alone in this singlesville s*** hole haha). ;P